i've seen these scars before
i know what they mean
i may not understan
but i know

funny thing about being shaken to your core
you find out what your core really is
what it would take to kill you
and what it takes to survive

i'm not sure what i should do
i don't know where i would want to go
all i know
is i certainly don't want to die here

i've played these games before
i know how to win
i may not always do so
but i know

rhm2
walk home another red half moon
maybe a little fuller this time
i know i'll be warmer soon
but i walk, i'll take my time
regrets aren't worth the weight
my shoulders feel the hate
i know now how to wait
how to avoid hellish fate

i cannot explain the reasons
i have for being this way
life moves with the seasons
and i feel better every day

never wanted anyone to hate me
still don't want you to choose to
i will not let you bait me
just like you don't think you used to
no more stealing hearts
you can only take what i give to you
though i can still tell when it starts
you still can't hear what i say to you
only what i don't...

i cannot explain the reasons
i have for being this way
all i can say is my utter faith
that i'll feel better every day

Lavender

It's an amazingly attractive dress
on an amazingly unattractive girl
it hangs around her like the hair
that she won't set free

But you know she'd rather be free of it
Let her hair down and play with it
run through fields only dreamed of
then she'd be beautiful
then she'd be beautiful

The pressure of the world is worrying
But not when she's smiling at you
She can always smile, no matter what
and still you know that the smile is true

But you know she'd rather be free of it
Let her hair down and play with it
Live the dreams we all forgot
then she'd be beautiful
then she'd be beautiful

if she was pretty, she'd probably be sad
but you know she's glad she's not
you're glad she's not
she's neither one

It's an amazingly attractive girl
Trapped inside and shining through
an amazingly unattractive dress

She walks like a dancer
She talks like a singer
She looks like a lover
you wish she was yours.

darkest days

when the darkest days arrive, the smallest light seems bright
Clench my eyes so tight fake circles appear
Memories of what once was light quiet so near
Protect myself against the dark I close my eyes
Close myself from your stark acknowledgment of lies

I can see out though I stay
Haven't hit the darkest days
I can feel it where we lay
Dreading what must be fate for me

Can't cry or force myself to break down
Force the sight of you I've found
It's not just mind over matter so much more
Man not in mood for chatter just a whore

Words coming out so wrong
Don't know what I think
I wish it would last so long
But the corpse of the past is starting to stink

When the darkest days arrive...

...where have you gone?

When the darkest days arrive...

...what have i done?

When the darkest days arrive...

...what am i supposed to do?

When the darkest days arrive...

...now that i'm losing you

When the darkest days arrive... ...the smallest light seems bright

Red Half Moon 3
here's a trick: the moon's blood red again
wonder who's inspired to write
about the beginning middle or the end
making all the words come out just right

seems like you've been telling me
i spend too much time looking at the sky
but i can see it was meant to be
i'm gonna live there someday

i've been given a 2x4 for this tightrope act
gotta be careful: there's a half inch less there than you'd expect
always been far too high for me to stop
always been the big man at the top of this big top

seems like you've been telling me
i spend too much time looking at the sky
but i can see it was meant tobe
i'm gonna live there someday

you tried to ruin this beauty for me
tried to mix fate with fate
but you can't threaten this deed
if i'm already hoping to be too late